| Thursday, October 28th, 2004 |
| 8:26 am |
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| Monday, September 27th, 2004 |
| 8:52 am |
FAGGOT
FAGGOTFAGGOTFAGGOTIMAFUCKINGFAGGOTQUEERP USSYFAGGOTFAGGOTFAGFAG FAG FA GFAG FAGGGGG FAG FAG!!!! |
| Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004 |
| 10:09 am |
what a fucking joke
people should stop repeating more of the same when they try to sound more intelligent then a actually are.what a theory. |
| Thursday, September 16th, 2004 |
| 2:54 pm |
8th was the best year of my life.
i remember when we were all a tightly knit group.skateboards and neighbors pizza. nothing mattered we thought it did but it didnt.all my ties are being severed and my bridges are burnt.just a few more and ill be an island oasis.palm trees and everything.wouldnt that be nice.dont know yet. one day we are all gonna look back and its going to be a sad sad day.everymorning i wake up and i shed a tear because i miss how things were the night before let alone when i was in the highschool or at grandpas watching darksideblues or at the fucking church.the day this all ends is the day i wrap a fucking rope around my neck. i dont know what im getting at or how to end this.i just noticed that a couple of my old friends that i separated from are now fighting themselves. i almost got into a drunken brawl with my best friend of five years last weekend. i just found out that a rather pleasent aquintence of mine that ive know for a good while new answers in math. so now i wonder what this void is .everyday at 12 when i get from school.everyone else is at work or getting a real education. out and about hustling and bustling. the cigarettes arent helping.they really arent................everyday i wake up and i dont know where i am or how i got there. |
| Friday, July 30th, 2004 |
| 12:42 pm |
deep things
o my angst of my sorrow that is inside the tangled web of my deepest soul of souls.wandering around this horrid world.deep....im so deep that you will all drown in my bird bath of sorrow |
| Friday, June 25th, 2004 |
| 1:52 am |
what was i thinking posting this for all to see...
love is a word used to replace desperation.wish we could all stand up.maybe even stand alone. i have never felt such bitter irony in anything in my life.we all stood alone to the point that it broke up the band.try to stand alone in all things.love, choices, school, work, life, feelings, hatred, beliefs, apathy.sometimes not caring is the biggest stand you can make no matter what people tell you. i cant make sense of all this.my proof of there being now answer is wonder, regret, and rememberence.everytime you look back at anything remember that if there was something better, not even better, just somethine that made us all feel content, feel a sense of ease, you would have found it by now and you wouldn't have to look back.we have been lost for far to long. |
| Friday, June 4th, 2004 |
| 6:43 pm |
what a joke
what a joke what a joke what a joke what a joke look at me dance what a joke |
| Tuesday, May 25th, 2004 |
| 11:55 am |
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| Tuesday, May 18th, 2004 |
| 11:22 am |
incomplete
so where do we go from here.its all going downhill.is downhill a bad thing.what is bad.what is incomplete.im running laps around the sun sitting on a couch. but you cant even see that.where is the dance party.does anyone have a beer? does anyone have some will and desire to live.mine fell out of my pocket.does anyone have a lack there of.cause all i want is to live.work work work work work.bass broke broke broke.anyone have a beer? no thank you.body wants to much.must stand up straight.want to fight i dont.anyone for a good game of jenga.quit beating around the bush and beat his face....MAN,MAN. |
| Monday, May 10th, 2004 |
| 9:03 am |
hardcore?
i'm getting pretty bored with thing whole hardcore this as of late.i love the music.but there is a lot more and im getting bored.i knew i wouldnt let myself get sucked in to the fashion some people put into it.but im getting to close when people are trying to fight because i disagree with them or because i dont dance how they think i should.fuck the scene. |
| Thursday, April 29th, 2004 |
| 4:22 pm |
when i die and i take that walk up to the gates of heaven and they pass their judgment on me will i be welcomed or banished to hell? " you may pass..... "no thank you" " then you are eternally damned to hell...." " no thank you......." "wait.......but you must" " i really would rather not have to choose sides" "but you have no choice" "but wait it was my choice to accept heaven or hell, and it is my choice to deny both. i still have some wandering i'd like to do ......" "but wait....where are you going..." "some place better..." i have the strongest feeling in my stomach that there is something.i don't know what.....but there just might be someone or something......and all i can do,when i get that feeling......is hate...... |
| Wednesday, April 28th, 2004 |
| 11:34 pm |
skumbags!
wednesday tonight tommorrow whatever it is to you.the skumbags at the new venue.me justin jordon chris and nick.please go help me convince chris to keep it going. 8 bucks 730 at the new venue.kims sabel thomas.all of you go please. |
| Tuesday, April 27th, 2004 |
| 8:20 am |
so.....the independents tommorrow....with possible skumbags reunion!...again hatebreed on friday with unearth remembering never may 22nd dashboard and thrice in june.....fuck yeah friday- drove to flagstaff.....blew a tire 90 miles outside the city....find the house real late.see its on a fucking slop whcih makes it fun to park.had to call into work and stay the night at xbox's house. ended up playing in a fucking basement to 20 people.it was cool though i guess.it was just a bummer cause it cost alot of money to get out there.bound in blood was fucking bad... used tire $36.53..... staurday- scrambled to find justin and realized he couldnt play.scrambled to get stand alone to play the desert party with soul existence. finally got up there realized it was a bunch of drunk assholes. but we set up.my cousin was real drunk and smashed an unopen beer can in this kids face and they tackled eachother and my cousin got his head cut up real bad.thats what happens when you are 15 beers deep at a desert party. we played good i guess.shane blew his voice out. tryed to leave cause it was a fuckin white trash haven but jeremy needed mikes guitar....fuck....first and last desert party. |
| Friday, April 23rd, 2004 |
| 8:45 am |
used to be punk rock now its hardcore...thomas when were you or any of us even around to remember when it took more then zero effort to be anything.we werent silly. straight edge kids would change the way they fucking sit if it gave them one more thing to stand for.... |
| Wednesday, April 21st, 2004 |
| 8:10 am |
i didnt say she was anerexic i said she has the features so she has no room to attack someone for their looks.personally that upsets me being someone not exactly great looking.and you said that shit on the open internet.you are gonna say shit on here where everyone can see it then dont be surprised when people say shit about it.you hate her.so keep the gloves up thats all im saying . |
| Tuesday, April 20th, 2004 |
| 8:20 am |
you dont have to like anyone but bonding over twinkies.thats funny coming from some having the attributes of a anerexic speed freak.cool way to attack shit people cant help ignorant asshole. |
| 8:18 am |
you have every right to kill yourself.im not going to hold you back. youve been brought into to somewhere you didnt ask to be brought.now you can decide for yourself whether or not you want to stick around.you should make sure thats what you want.some people have it pretty bad and others like the attention.it should be a pretty good reason.its not wrong.its selfish but it isnt wrong. |
| Monday, April 19th, 2004 |
| 9:32 pm |
acutal
acutally i dont want to kill myself thomas... i think about it sometimes but every one does ... i dont want to, especially after today |
| Sunday, April 18th, 2004 |
| 2:05 pm |
SHOW ON APRIL 16th
thanks for coming to the shows everyone.its was cool how on the second one i almost goit into three fights. i was cool with the confrontations untill that kid had his hands around my throat. all those kids from parker that got pissed cause i regulated the pit are ignorant pricks. i would loved to see all those kids fuck with the stand alone crew....not to mention that kid rippping his shirt off and flexin was the absolute most ridiculus thing i have ever seen. |
| 1:55 pm |
thanks for being there kim.sorry im a dick to you sometimes but you have done some pretty stupid shit in the past and for some reason i hold on to shit like that.not that i hold it against you and still think about the fical cunt.but its reflected in the way i treat people i guess.i dont know.this is why i stoppped going to the highschool.to get away from this.so if you ever break edge.we should have some beers some time...huh?huh?maybe not. i want to leave to somewhere new to get away from all this.but then again thats what every does.maybe ill stick around and watch all you leave and ill be left with my city.if i dont kill myself by then.maybe i should take my friend mikes advise and use by beer money to by a gun.i apologize for my random moods.constant changing, constant depression, constant chemical abuse. sorry i cant stand up and be myself.i dont go out of my way to hurt your feelings.im an asshole and i dont deserve yo0u or anyone else. im going to go smoke my last hope untill im dead. |
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